Nothing left but Faith

A friend of mine died earlier this year. I could not write about it for some time. He died of natural death and lived a good and very long life. There are few men in life, beside one´s father, who teach you about life. I met two in my life, both dead now. One a protestant priest who stood up against many church officials when he openly met with homosexual communities and stood for their rights. I remember back when he was already heavily suffering from cancer, he would still pretend to hit us young kids, saying "I can still fight you!". And yes, he would often preach about how you can fight anyone, even God, if need be (you can find this in the Bible if you want to. I have not opened the book for a long time, so I can´t tell you where exactly this is pagewise, but it is the story of Jacob, I believe).
The friend was a very rare kind as well. May my actions honor their memories.

Fancy stuff

I am reading Lost Girls by Alan Moore.

Three girls, named Alice, Wendy and Dorothy share stories about their sexual experiences. The names are not random and the analogy is obvious. However, this is not pornography as such, since the book is rather thoughtful. 

Isn´t it strange how up to now, we, as a society have problems in discussing sexuality without being accused of pornography or using neutral language. Hypocrisy and false morals above us...

Should you absolutely need to know, I was fabulously drunk on my first time and did not really care. The early childhood experiences? I am not going there. You?

Oh, by the way, the book is absolutely worth reading!

Scared As You

I can never get enough of this song....

you know those things i said
all those things that made you cry
i didn't really mean that stuff
i didn't really mean that stuff
all i ever really mean
when i scream and shout the way i do
is i don't know
i really don't
i'm just the same as you

you know those things i said
all those things that made you
run away from me
i didn't mean a word
i didn't really mean i don't believe
all i ever really mean
when i rant and rave the way i do
is i'm scared
i'm scared
i'm just as scared as you

and sometimes it's so hard
not to just throw it all away
sometimes it's so hard
not to just throw it all away
like all those things i said
all those things that made you cry
i didn't really mean that stuff
i didn't really mean to say goodbye

you know those things i said
all those things that made you
run away from me
i didn't mean a word
i didn't really mean i don't believe
all i ever really mean
when i scream and shout the way i do
is i'm scared
i'm scared
i'm just as scared as you

Essential Post-punk: Novelty by Joy Division

One of Joy Division's more punk rooted songs. Fantastic bass, mesmerizing mix and provoking lyrics.

When people listen to you don't you know it means a lot,
'Cos you've got to work so hard for everything you've got.
Can't rest on your laurels now,
Not when you've got none.
You'll find yourself in a gutter,
Right back where you came from.

Someone told me being in the know is the main thing.
We all need the security that belonging brings.
Can't stand on your own in these times,
Against all the odds,
You all just fall behind like all the other sods.

You slap our backs and pretend you knew about,
All the things that we were gonna do.
What ya gonna do, what ya gonna do,
When it's over?
You're on your own now,
Don't you think that's a shame?
But you're the only one responsible to take the blame.
So what ya gonna do when the novelty has gone?
Yeah, what ya gonna do when the novelty has gone?

You slap our backs,
And pretend you knew about,
All the things we were gonna do.
What ya gonna do, what ya gonna do
When its over?

So what´s your excuse?

Life can be tough. Having said that, most of us probably don' t have a clue just how tough. But through struggles, through coping and standing up miracles can be born. So anytime you are down, remember this guy and follow his example. If you really want to do something, don' t stop digging until you find a way!

 

You are number one...

...in helping other people.

Always remember this. Always be self-confident and possess or hone your skills so that you will achieve mastery in whatever you choose to do. But never forget the goal: You are the most important person, number one, in helping other people.

Get free RPGs and help Haiti

There is a great initiative going on. In short - if you donate 20 bucks to Doctors Without Borders, you get to download USD 1000 worth of paper RPGs.

Initially I was a little suspicious of whether its not some sort of scam. It is not, 3 business days after sending the money, I  got 200 download links as was promised on DriveThruRPG Website.

Check more about the deal and the list of titles you´ll get get if you help here